Thursday, June 28, 2018

I cried the whole night through


You did not come
I cried the whole night through
Such that my soaked mattress
Became a marsh
Sinking in the thought of you
Submerged and all surrounding
Body riven through with flame in drowning
In the brackish, black undertow
Like a hot wash spinning
Sweat drops on my spine
Mustard tears on my cheeks
The thought of you sawing
On my stretched gut string.

You did not come
I cried the whole night through
Such that my soaked mattress
Became a marsh and I awoke
Surrounded by wading birds and heron.

Wednesday, June 13, 2018

Crisp Packets on the Avenell Rd and A letter to Arsene Wenger II


Vase. Final Jomon Period. Japan

I. Crisp Packets on the Avenell Rd.

Crisp packets on the Avenell Rd
Under the clouding Sky.
What once was diamond, marble, bronze
Is plastic now, light and glass
Astroturf
Where was once was grass.

Hashtag protests staffed by ghosts
Journalists and empty crisp
Packets blowing down the Avenell Rd.

Felt-tip scrawl on A4
Out of all proportions lensed
Broadcast reproduction
Global distribution, trends
It's Freudian. The trapped at home
And fatherless grasp manhood
Through patricide. With Oedipal leverage
An edited double page spread
By buttered bread mercenaries
Goes blowing down the Avenell Rd.
Under the clouding sky.

Lesbian bloggers on the Avenell Rd.
Crisp packets in Damascus
The tactics of birth certificates
A war of pipes, fox holes and pockets
Non-linear dynamics, google mapped
OCEANs, fingertip cracks
Fissure outliers in the system
Literate multi-lingual sophistication
Went out of fashion.
And enlightenment so yesterday.

II. A letter to Arsene Wenger

A guess the cock if oft the weather vein
A shot at the big cup covers a couple
Of crying actors, tickets and twitter-bots
Same shit. I blame brexit.

After the game is done
Blinded by the Sun
They'll blame some crazy bastard from the A-team
Claim he didn't work his share.

After the game is done
In light of the sky and the sun
If we look around for those to whom comparison seems fair
What colour was your revolution?

Beyond Michels and Paisley
Like none since Ali
Alongside Gaddaffi, Assad, dare I say
Obama
A leader worthy of hyper reality psychodrama.

Transcendent in the end
As Kings are ever known as Cesar
The Gunners head will be Arsene.

Saturday, June 09, 2018

Not for the rhyme

It ain't poetry that makes them fly from overseas
Swear they won't leave
Long after three
Holding cold cups of tea.

It ain't the rhyme
That makes them bang on the door
Call at the window
Wanting what came before.

I can't put my finger on it
It's on the tip of my tongue
It's not for the rhyme that they come.

Friday, June 08, 2018

Fish and refugees I,II,III


The bald heads bobbed above the standard seats
Like toffee apples in a bowl on Halloween
“I'm shipping the chest freezer all the way over”
“All the way over!”
“All the way over. Shipping's cheap.”

“I was a child in the Isle of Mann
It's their fault for having open borders
All the way to over there.”
“I know about the EU” he said
“We have an agreement with the French”
37,000ft in the air.

“Do you know how many people died on Thailand's roads this month?”
He asked, almost accusatory.
“How old is yours?”
“36”
“You don't smoke”
“No”
“No”
“Not anymore”
“And how old are you now?”

“We can have the fish”
“You can't just fish more fish there are scientists”
“Scientists give our fish to the Spanish.”

Fish is 0.5% of GDP
97% of migrants are not refugees
This I didn't share, lean in, intervene
From my chair, given that obviously,
Small changes can cause chaos
In a complex system
And at the time we were all 37,000ft in the air.

“I haven't done as well as some of my friends
From the Grammar. Secondary Modern?”
The other nods
And I don't blame my father” to strangers
37,000ft in the air
With no mention of the City, or pensions, tax
Empire, sunset havens, their asylum.
“but you want to know what went wrong of course”
The man from the Isle of Mann agreed.
And they talked fish and refugees.

II.

Because the commonwealth will come and help us
Because we were raised on these myths
That Johnny Foreigner loved the way we give it to em
Because coal black, white tooth sambo
Will offer up his bowl
In exchange for a touch of British class.
Because they were lucky to have us
We were raised on these myths.

What have they done to Greece?
To Sumeria?
Ruins now and aped in architecture
The house that power built and myths
Stripped and shipped and worn
Like ermines of our time.

Do they build like Christchurch in Korea?
Will we who first burnt coal be remembered in our forms
Will they read Shakespeare and Newton any more
Like Pythagoras and Homer
Will these stories fur our descendants shoulders
Even as their great arc breaks on this new era's shore?

The myths don't tell you
That we dismantled the cotton industry of India
For the mills of Manchester
Dismembered the Ottoman Umma when oil was new and cool.
Fought the Chinese for right to sell them smack
Fought them again to sell them more.
Murdered the Irish for nine hundred years,
James, Henry, Cromwell, the blight,
Filler on the Western Front.
Armed Benin to enslave the Gold Coast, Guinea
Then broke them in debt
Our myths don't record this
But the Irish, Chinese, Ghanaians, the Indians
They all have their own myths.

Our myths speak of a heroic past
When pith helmets paved the way for God
And God spoke in English
When we bought trade to backwaters
And illiterates ululated, encircled, enthralled
Crowned us with garlands and feathers
Showed us gleaming treasures which we took.
Our myths never say that maybe they
Expected garlands back.

And so we go
Cap proudly on our head
And offer up these myths to the French
Who we fought for five hundred years
And sneered at.
And Germans, who we fought and humiliated
The Italians who we fought, the Austrians and Hungarians
Who we defeated. The Dutch for whom we invented
Concentration camps.
And the Spanish where we've got a rock
Stuck like a pile in their butt
And say give us this, for these myths
But they have their own.

III.

The driver made the ride scream all the way
Down the road from Bangkok, professional
Past low foundries, platoons of effigies
Blurring like change, green and sweat, square shacks
Body shops each block like the vehicles here
Are broken.

The green Island rises above grey sea
Like a well sung myth. Roof gone high and wide
Above the shrubs, pale sand, dark palm fronds splay
Like torn Venetian blinds against the sky
Pennants of a paradisal army
And some, beetle eaten their headdress slipped
Make littoral a harbour of stalled ships
The tropic thick air presses like a dilute sea
Seasoned by butterflies, blooms, these foreign
To my eye the lizards, bugs, the plants here
Flower until they die.

From the shore at night you'd be forgiven
For thinking the fishing boats far cities
Lost Atlantis and its suburbs risen
From the sea. What chance do squid have, what pity
Soft flourescence the most delightful spell
Of all sweet dances in staged Darwin's hall
What chance do they stand against the blazing lure
Appolline, Venusian halogens
To see such beauty so immense and pure
That we could not know, but to call it awe
So they rush to the net, the plate, their end.

There are young teak stands, seas of cane acreage
And the jungle brush fires reak like temples.
Throughout the year, when the cane stands tall
After sundown men go from the village
Set flaming torches to ripe sugar
And it lights the countryside like pillage.

The saddest part is to see elephants
Balding pink patches, hunched, dropped ears, limp trunks
Chained waiting for riders they cannot want
Far from home jungles and most often drunk.

A couple, young and bronzed track the water
Footprints snakewise though the sand and jetsam
Their hands are not together, heads are down
This dream they both dreamt in another town
Seems dreamt now in separate minds today
Like they woke in a brochure and full of reproach
The saltwater washes their tracks away.

Thursday, June 07, 2018

Shrapnel 32


Damn fools got trolled, sell the crown jewels for roubles
Posh trash and screwballs, wash cash with new rules
The carve up, of the imperial cigar butt
Ash for the hard up, putting robots in Starbucks.
Penny pinching cos your pockets is picked
Taking in inches cos you swallowed the shit.
Since the voyage of the Begal
Stitched by thread-needle, the spread eagle
Spreads-evil
Easier to rob oil when the country is feeble.
It's like banks leak to barbados
Played us like guitars and invades us.
Treat the whole world like Vegas
The shit's worn old
Rachet strap attachment for fascists
Get the scaffold.

Wednesday, June 06, 2018

Ask me this

Ask me this
In magnesium flares
That which you wish
If you've will to dare.

And I would grow flowers
Cut flowers like the heads of heathens
Like harvest corn.
What colours would we make
Kaleidoscope and follow fate
Through fractal days,
Reinventions, iron filings
In the fireworks
Cream in the puddings
All this patience in the dark
Ask me this
At the end of a touch paper
Full of spark.

Fish and refugees. III


The driver made the ride scream all the way
Down the road from Bangkok, professional
Past low foundries, platoons of effigies
Blurring like change, green and sweat, square shacks
Body shops each block like the vehicles here
Are broken.

The green Island rises above grey sea
Like a well sung myth. Roof gone high and wide
Above the shrubs, pale sand, dark palm fronds splay
Like torn Venetian blinds against the sky
Pennants of a paradisal army
And some, beetle eaten their headdress slipped
Make littoral a harbour of stalled ships
The tropic thick air presses like a dilute sea
Seasoned by butterflies, blooms, these foreign
To my eye the lizards, bugs, the plants here
Flower until they die.

From the shore at night you'd be forgiven
For thinking the fishing boats far cities
Lost Atlantis and its suburbs risen
From the sea. What chance do squid have, what pity
Soft flourescence the most delightful spell
Of all sweet dances in staged Darwin's hall
What chance do they stand against the blazing lure
The Venusian halogens
To see such beauty so immense and pure
That we could not know, but to call it awe
So they rush to the net, the plate, their end.

There are young teak stands, seas of cane acreage
And the jungle brush fires reak like temples.
Throughout the year, when the cane stands tall
After sundown men go from the village
Set flaming torches to ripe sugar
And it lights the countryside like pillage.

The saddest part is to see elephants
Balding pink patches, hunched, dropped ears, limp trunks
Chained waiting for riders they cannot want
Far from home jungles and most often drunk.

A couple, young and bronzed track the water
Footprints snakewise though the sand and flotsam
Their hands are not together, heads are down
This dream they both dreamt in another town
Seems dreamt now in separate minds today
Like they woke in a brochure and full of reproach
The saltwater washes their tracks away.

Saturday, May 19, 2018

Fish and refugees, postscript


Because the commonwealth will come and help us
Because we were raised on these myths
That Johnny Foreigner loved the way we give it to em
Because coal black, white tooth sambo
Will offer up his bowl
In exchange for a touch of British class.
Because they were lucky to have us
We were raised on these myths.

What have they done to Greece?
To Sumeria?
Ruins now and aped in architecture
The house that power built and myths
Stripped and shipped and worn
Like ermines of our time.

Do they build like Christchurch in Korea?
Will we who first burnt coal be remembered in our forms
Will they read Shakespeare and Newton any more
Like Pythagoras and Homer
Will these stories fur our descendants shoulders
Even as their great arc breaks on this new era's shore?

The myths don't tell you
That we dismantled the cotton industry of India
For the mills of Manchester
Dismembered the Ottoman Umma when oil was new and cool.
Fought the Chinese for right to sell them smack
Fought them again to sell them more.
Murdered the Irish for nine hundred years,
James, Henry, Cromwell, the blight,
Filler on the Western Front.
Armed Benin to enslave the Gold Coast, Guinea
Then broke them in debt
Our myths don't record this
But the Irish, Chinese, Ghanaians, the Indians
They all have their own myths.

Our myths speak of a heroic past
When pith helmets paved the way for God
And God spoke in English
When we bought trade to backwaters
And illiterates ululated, encircled, enthralled
Crowned us with garlands and feathers
Showed us gleaming treasures which we took.
Our myths never say that maybe they
Expected garlands back.

And so we go
Cap proudly on our head
And offer up these myths to the French
Who we fought for five hundred years
And sneered at.
And Germans, who we fought and humiliated
The Italians who we fought, the Austrians and Hungarians
Who we defeated. The Dutch for whom we invented
Concentration camps.
And the Spanish where we've got a rock
Stuck like a pile in their butt
And say give us this, for these myths
But they have their own.

Friday, May 18, 2018

Fish and refugees


The bald heads bobbed above the standard seats
Like toffee apples in a bowl on Halloween
“I'm shipping the chest freezer all the way over”
“All the way over!”
“All the way over. Shipping's cheap.”

“I was a child in the Isle of Mann
It's their fault for having open borders
All the way to over there.”
“I know about the EU” he said
“We have an agreement with the French”
37,000ft in the air.

“Do you know how many people died on Thailand's roads this month?”
He asked, almost accusatory.
“How old is yours?”
“36”
“You don't smoke”
“No”
“No”
“Not anymore”
“And how old are you now?”

“We can have the fish”
“You can't just fish more fish there are scientists”
“Scientists give our fish to the Spanish.”

Fish is 0.5% of GDP
97% of migrants are not refugees
This I didn't share, lean in, intervene
From my chair, given that obviously,
Small changes can cause chaos
In a complex system
And at the time we were all 37,000ft in the air.

“I haven't done as well as some of my friends
From the Grammar. Secondary Modern?”
The other nods
And I don't blame my father” to strangers
37,000ft in the air
With no mention of the City, or pensions, tax
Empire, sunset havens, their asylum.
“but you want to know what went wrong of course”
The man from the Isle of Mann agreed.
And they talked fish and refugees.

Sunday, April 08, 2018

Note

In lieu of a hotel
I spent the night in Pattaya
In various bars
Decorated with whores
But you had exhausted me
Of all, none seemed worthy.

Saturday, April 07, 2018

Emotional Intelligence


I had looked in through a lense
Bent light magnifying the focal point
Making elephants from sea horses
Like a ship's captain or spy.
Espionage on my psyche.
Infiltrating which why.
Straightening my spine
In mantras, calming horses in the garden
Until once I just heard waves
Like radio from inner tides
Like surf wash, too wide for the eye
Meaningless through a lense.
The voice the forest makes
From all its combined parts
Asidophilous, the gut, the heart
The eukaryotic colony, full symphony
Messages formed before the ear
Before words reach
Wi-fi in the mitochondria
Answers like a village greeting
Within the citadel's defence
In waves received emotional intelligence.


Thursday, April 05, 2018

List

Phone battery and lense
Tracksuit bottoms.
This is an incomplete list.
Add wanderlust for spice
A thimble of zest
Add white to blue mornings
And watch the sky lift
Add enthusiasm and stir
Thrice widdishins
And check the clocks
Add why to nots.
It will never add up
If you look for the answer to be four
It's not arithmetic, this course.
This an incomplete list.

Saturday, March 31, 2018

Acts of faith


The roads are an act of faith
The old world left
Where time was taken to cut corn
Cement empire, mitre ashlar boulevards
For this florescence of concrete rectangles, coated beige
Like religion has faded from yellowed walls
Low houses lost, the undergrowth
Like stenciled adverts peel, eaten by the sweat of air.
A verdant florescence of failed Tetris
Crystalising out of poverty like an invasion
Necessity's efficiency, three to a scooter
While the bloated SUV sits marooned 
In traffic, in rivers of screaming steel
Pheromone lines of industry swarming
A cacophony of honks and horns storm junctions
Like piston driven Wilderbeast across the Mara, Mbalageti.

Over such self-organised acts of faith
New Collossi tower, children of Luxor
Stronger, better fed, clad in dark glass, bones of steel
Saturated in benzene smog like an afterbirth of wealth
The Napoleonic dream lucid in this half light
Tarmaced ballistics, the gyre on thin wheels
Young trees, scaffolded in the flood, a sticking plaster
For this incensed place, that boils.
The roads are an act of faith.

Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Valentine for L

Moon over water
In love I went diving in
Trying to find you.

Valentine for an errant muse

It's a scar upon my mind that kiss
Etched my nerves like lithograph
Parting peck branded my cheek
Now this sense unbidden comes
The skin blushes
And the bone
A tactile hallucination
The sweetest gift I've known.

Valentine for uplink

Am I allowed to miss you
All this while elapsed
And you moved through
Jail birds and murderers
And I through houses
I was rich then
Favours in my pocket like bank notes
And all so valuable
Most, Most
Favours are not printed from a plate
Each art work unique
Your imprint so soft and brief
And I ended so off and chief
Am I allowed to miss you?
It wasn't ever
That I thought your soul not art
The work that you have wrought
So beautiful, a perfect crystal
Of balanced love, warm joy
And tact
Am I allowed a fond look back?
I will miss you
When I'm a faded memory
And you grey haired and courtly
When the towers are being torn down again
When the seas come, and each season
Is a blessing.
I'll miss you
And know love better in the missing.

Valentine for A

Sproutlings, my fountain, zest
I sketched a thought upon a napkin
To hand onto a passing Toucan
Some token of my affection
I'll act as if you never got.

Some time back I lit a fire in this spot
Not that block that blazes up the way
Down the charred path ashen grey
I wonder how that caught.

There was a sapling on this street
I've searched for day and night
Perhaps if I climb this tall tree
I'll get a clearer sight.

Feather bale, the sun was better with you
Finding myself in the long grass
Corridors booby trapped with anticipation
Your voice like a trapeze harness. Pinstripe suit
The sun was better with you.

Valentine for S


When you put your ear to a shell
You can hear the sea
Only its not the sea, but air
Reverberating between your ear
And the empty space of the shell.
But I'll still reach the pink conch
Off the shelf and listen.
It was only when we stopped
That I saw everyone watching
When we danced in the restaurant
A few days to go.
Woolly hat, green sarong, the pattern
On the cafe window on Mare Street
It's odd what you retain.
Air reverberating against the shell.
I gave no thought to memory then
Tea tree oil and lavender
Turn tumblers, and I hear the sea
Only it's not the sea, but time
Reverberating between heart and memory.


Tuesday, February 06, 2018

Thing

Call these piled clouds, tall toppling bubbles
So they sit gathered upon my shoulders
Like plastered cherubs with bugles and flute
Blue note sets Weeble free tarantella
I shall wash in this thick winter frost, hot
Till hail spills warm from my brow Baptismal.
Desire born for this season, Christened
In cursive fonts like Ariadne's thread
Lay traced in rotting archaeology
Its direction reckoned in forensics.


Sunday, January 28, 2018

Blueprint - Cake

Offering dish. Trans-Jordan 2nd millenium BC

Silk bussel, silvered mirror and wig
She thought leavened eggs
Sugar, risen golden baked,was cake
A hall of silver mirrors and lace.

With a common touch,
Grease fingered and muddied
They called pie
Higher, with deeper slices
Stories tall sliver of filling
Steaming via the podium
From some nation's womb
And it's news.
Pie is how we organise sunshine.

Calm at the eye of the storm, cake
A gyre spread across continents
Wrath or bounty in a wing's breath
Bodies of men and women, steel hoppers
The wheels of lorries, docking ships
Hands in chain across dimensions
Plane brake smoke on bitumen
Cake is not the the thing in the tin
Cake is how we organise sunshine.

Certain as it rises
Balance a pyramid on pin
Set head after tail, after head
After wing, after leaf, after blade,
After photon..
Alfafa, Cock's foot and Timothy
Concentrate blue grass to cream
Organise worms to custard
Box sunshine in steel and ship it
From under the watchful eye of Christ
To glass mountains
Soya beans marching like Napoleon
Rivers be dammed, greenhouses
Built on sand. Blood on the walls
Blood in the drains, for Pie.
This is how we organise sunshine.

Therapy Notes II

In calling after echoes of you
I found hard walls
Tunnels reverberating
In hurled questions
Heard the old curse repeat
And repeat and repeat
Until it settles.

In calling after echoes
Calling out to walls and tunnels
I heard a wailing child I could not find
Beaten by bounced brick bats
Indicted by blame
Found that comfort missed
From the call of anguish
That repeats and repeats and repeats
Until it settles.

In calling after echoes of you
I began to find missing screws
Piston bolts, the grit, lost teeth
In lightless vaults retrained sight
Retrained my ear, like bats to
Echoes
That repeat and settle.

Saturday, January 27, 2018

They make the air a vice

They make the air a vice
And the pension crisis
Solved by wolves
Assyrian ceramic perfume bottle.

Fear in the hollow eyes
The houses, mouths open wide
Respectably shocked
And silent.

They make the air a vice
Pressing like a coming fire
Walking with hands ready
Clenched, missing a rosary
Worry lines like tectonics in streets
And an ad break.

What's the benefit of all this
Orwellian project handed in late
The trail of a small jet
All the clothes a little older
Decorated.
Chop and change like shops
The air is a vice
Invisible wolves in the clouds
There will be looting.

Like Nandrolone

I'll see you soon
Means the same as I'll phone
She loved me
Like an iguana in fish tank
I loved her like Nandrolone.

Friday, January 26, 2018

Going to sleep on the job

Here's a thing
And you may think it's odd
Top pros
Fall asleep on the job.

It can be a hard day's work
Full of stress and strain
But when the jobs on
It's not time to complain.

When it's all up in the air
And there's lights flashing up
And all about
Have just run amok.

Here's a tip from the top
And you may think it odd
Top pros
Go to sleep on the job.

When they're all out there
Looking on you
When there's no way out
And more chores to do

The solution, is not what you think
Find a spot right by the fuss
And take forty winks.
When is comes parniing down
And they call off the dogs
That's when top pros
Go to sleep on the job.

Thursday, January 25, 2018

Salt and ashes

Cast this cargo seaward
Salt and ashes, what it fertilises
I will neither know nor tend
Only seeds upon the wind
I will not pass by here again.
The watermark is low
Cast this cargo
And should some find value
Fish, urchins, crab
Let us celebrate next habour
With logs, flagons and song
They will not mark this spot for long
Not with an X.
But let us celebrate
Sacrifice to fish
It was but stowed weight these gifts
This fresh wind so swift
She skips across the crests
And runs the storms like Terns
Tell me are there ports to West
Or South of here
I have a hold so capacitous
Maybe in Dalmatia
I'll find pepper I can trade for wine
This cargo is but salt and ashes
The wind is good, the weather fine.

Patterns

If as from my life seems clear
I fall in love every seven years
Then by the time I love again
I'll be 49 and to what end?
To just repeat this pattern.

It's a thought and part a fear
A cause to check the course and steer
By the time I love again
I'll be 49 and to what end?
To just repeat this pattern.

Tuesday, January 23, 2018

She was so hot

When I met her I was like
"Where do you shop?"
She was so hot she burnt cotton up
Made nylon melt
She'd walk in the rain
And turn wool into felt.

I said "Would you like a drink?"
She said something with ice
Didn't blink 
Held my heart like a vice. 

She was so hot 
She turned shower drops to steam
Kept changing the channel
With infrared beams

She could cook an egg in her hand 
The constant smoke alarms
Give her oats, butter and
Honey, she could make flapjacks in her palm. 

She was so hot 
She was so hot, I candid confide
I was afraid for my child
Because of piles of bromide. 

Like an explosion
White heat, blue lights, A&E, third degree
Six months in traction, intensively. 

There were times I thought it couldn't last
Like after the fourth skin graft 
Making love in an ice bath
But the water wouldn't last
And we wouldn't stop
Wake staring up at a pitying doc.

After the fourteenth graft post-op
Got a consultant proper top
Nobody's fool
And he suggested investing 
In a swimming pool. 

It didn't take long. 
We got an ice dispenser
Opened a hammam as a community centre
Then thought why not. 
Got a turbine charged 20p a kilowatt. 

Now everyday we fill the whole pool with ice.
Steam generate making nice.

Saturday, January 20, 2018

The Venerable Should

In the Understood Wood
In the Foothills of Good
Lives a beast known
As the Venerable Should

With two hundred heads
And a great sense of smell
The Venerable Should
Is often unwell.

For with two hundred heads
It has two hundred minds
And they don't all agree
All of the time.

So as one is given
To climb up a tree
Then another is given
To burrow beneath

And it furrows the brow
Of those in between
A hundred howls echo
Through the glimmering green

For a Should could do this
And Should could do that
You will often see Shoulds
Going forward and back.

And sometimes its coat
Is a big fuzzy ball
And sometimes it molts
And is clean cut and small.

And if you see one
You sometimes can't tell
For the Venerable Should
Changes colour as well.

Sometimes its brown mottled
And brushed into the green
At others, pink polka dot
That cannot be unseen.

One head likes to fish
And stay down by the river
Another gets colds
Its nose all a quiver

And yet another
Will eat only fruit
And the next one along
Likes Trivial Pursuit.

And they all think that they're right
And they generally are
But the Venerable Should
Seldom strays far.

For with two hundred heads
And four hundred eyes
That it is often confused
Is no great suprise.

In the Foothills of Good
The chorus of Should
Is sometimes seen chasing
For Ifs and for Woulds.

And rarely, when the stars
Are all in correct sections
The two hundred heads
Face one direction

Then, in the Understood Wood
In the Foothills of Good
Goes trotting forward
The Venerable Should.

Thursday, January 18, 2018

Jerry Beck's grant cheque

Jerry Beck's grant cheque had knees
And jumped from bank to bank like fleas
They gave him this, and gave him that
And soon that grant cheque grew fat.

He took the entertainment cash
And put it all on railtrack
Over summer made a stack
Then returned the balance back.

Jerry Beck had patience
And asked good questions too
From fractions of a cent or pence
His yeastlike fortune grew.

Jerry Beck's grant cheque had knees
He plays cricket
With the Cayman Island cricket team.

Weather balloons

We read it very early on
As the hole in ozone bloomed
NASA in Alaska with their weather balloons
They captured all the data
And when it was not what they assumed
They said it must be calibration
The gadget out of tune.
So they put it back to benchmark
Light made dark by folk so smart
We'd just been to the moon.

And throughout the 70s
And in the 80s too
They threw out what they saw
For what they thought they knew
We sprayed aerosol and CFCs
The hole above us grew
And all the while they changed the spreadsheets
Thinking them untrue
And these were folk of science
They were not buffoons
Whole teams for decades
Deaf to weather balloons.

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

Forget all this

Pelike. Vase. Depicting birth of Aphrodite. Rhodes 5th Century BC

Love, why not lover, come to bath, to wash
Come to the table, to cloth
The cost, the hurt, would make this love so firm
On deep cut foundings we will grow and learn.

Know it's only you
Your cautious grace, a slow embrace
Like every space is kissed
Your regal air, your will to dare
Makes every place a palace.
Forget all this.

Forget the day, these hours
The shackling clock so slow
Forget the brick, the towers
This city paved in gold
Forget your doors and curtains
Your furnishings and clothes
Forget all your bright jewelry
Forget them all and come

To the forests, the briars, the dark thickets
Beyond all lies and truth
Beyond veracity and acting
Beyond age and youth
Tear yourself if you must
Till blood drips,
Drips from the wire pen
Sunshine, our land
Are not yours till won.

Sunday, January 07, 2018

Rugby ball

This may be not the thing to say
But we'll make it right another day.
And now if you admit your fall
I won't treat you like a rugby ball
Seek to grasp and runaway
Drop kick to touch to make a play
Throw you swift around my friends
And push and barge off other men.

This may be not the thing to say
We'll make it right another day
When you call, it's joy to fall
You won't become a rugby ball.

Therapy notes

Too much the child
They will not help you up
And fix you
They've done their time
This what their skills can do
They will not help you up.

And if they could've done better
Settled all the butterflies
Set up all the dominoes
You know they would've done so
This is what their skills can do
They cannot help you up.

The slow rolling of the hill
The greying hairs
The baggage train of unexplained
Armaments, defences
The rusted buckle on well stowed pain
The ordinary pretences
The soft and seeping sore of love
Too tender to be touched
Too much the child
Too much the child
They will not help you up.

Saturday, December 23, 2017

That passes

Willow by the bank
I hope you are well
With the water that passes
Under your tresses
With the brook that runs
With the nest at your roots
With this season of ruin
With the burgeoning fruit.
I hope you are well
With the water that passes.

Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Be worth it

Call me an idealist
But from the start
Just be worth
A broken heart.
I don't mind tarts
Artists, Spartans
But I ask this for certain
Should you strike with Cupid's dart
Just be worth a broken heart.

From a love that's lost
I bought the old bay tree
That rooted now
Grows wild and free
With leaves that lend
A depth to tea
This one thing I'll ask of thee
Even if we one day part
Just be worth a broken heart.

One dawn, one dusk
Above the sea
One lingered cusp
One hand in need
Even without bended knee
If to love you well
Means to set you free
I'll take the shilling and embark
Just be worth a broken heart.

Monday, December 18, 2017

Rock pools

Under the skin
Dip, like thrown rock
And it's cool
In a thin, sun-cradled layer
On the top.
Stretched hands out like darts
Into almost ice
In the dark, murk
Deep hollow of rock
Sun does not touch, dense
Almost ice
Swaddled in slowed time
And all within becomes fire
Fighting, almost ice
To the light, the surface and sun
The shining picture of mountains
When the skin stills again.

Saturday, November 25, 2017

Blueprint - Ivory Towers

The bones of magic, dead enchanted things.

From the ground the tops look like needle tips
Gaudi's skyscrapers in seperate estates
So high they penetrate the atmosphere
Take the measure of stars.
Golden fire reflects off ivory like a beacon
After the sun's moved on to other lands
And from the high windowed panopticon
You can see all below like satellites,
In days and seasons when the weather's right
Though mostly all is fluffy candyfloss
Bright cottonwool of brilliant white,
Tracking the sight of storms wet eyes
In the pure unbroken cover of the sky.
Yet when it's clear
The earthbound look like black mustard seeds
Spilled from a jar
Cities like scars, you see no nations
From space. In the stacked cream. Right at the top
You cannot hear a scream.


Stretching up to the sun,
The stolen bones of slain enchanted things
Undone. Narwhale, elephant and unicorn
Space scratching scaffold of tusk and horn,
With balconies, with walkways and turrets
Through the troposhphere. And here
At the base, you can still see blood on the tusks
Dried black and brown and inside a prison
Countless incarcerated, trussed
And bound in cloth, leather, card
Shut cramped like slave ships
Billions of crushed trees branded
And silenced like dissidents.

With a telescope you will see space suits
Weaving a lattice of tusks, for ever more shelves
The cells of knowledge, the labrynth of crannies
The walls of these towers built of prisoners
Built of creativity and dissent.
Light and glass. With light and glass
They can be free, shake their cracked binds
Fly from between the tusks and horns
Like a snowstorm,
Like a typhoon of finches, hummingbird and butterfly.
Each carve it's own netsuke.
And let the pages live among the trees,
Live in cities on the rooftops and parks
Eat seed from the meadows and
Drop the letters of their brandings as they throng
So the streets and fields grow flush with wisdom.

The silos in the stratosphere are no good use of bones
Of the lives of elephants and unicorns
Of fishing magic beasts in arctic waters.
These seperate towers into space when we can fly.
When we have an international station there
Above ivory towers rising high into the air.

Sunday, November 19, 2017

Haiku mentioning vampires

These watchful robots
Do they search for Dracula
Bats in the belfry

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Glass I

It was transparent
Vinegar streaks from windowlene
Buffed to invisibility. Pristine
Clean windows. And the small fly
Shook it's wings with all its force
And drummed the pane in all recourse
But not without remorse
It was transparent
Clear. It could not pass.

The fly could see the rotting mass beyond
Could see the rubbish strewn about the public
Street. All the shit it could ever eat.
The fly could see it
It was transparent.

And if it called a million friends
They could not find a pass.
To show them shit and still pretend
A fly can force the glass.

It didn't have glass cutter
Later. I found a dry dead fly
On the sill in dust and clutter.

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Blueprint - Oceans

Attic Amphora 520BC. Thetis delivers Armour to Achilles

We have built oceans in the sky
Glass bottomed that gleam in the sun
They are clouded, the keels of yachts
The slow whales, swift sharks visible
When the clouds part.

The great imperial locks and seals
The black bitumen seams that sweat
High vaulted walls, their narrow shore
The face of safe doors that perspire
Condensation on the steel skin
Creaking gaskets of old money
Dripping. Where the great pipes empty
In a Niagra, spray rises
High into the air and some winds
Set the waves to lap in thin cascades.
There are waterways in the sky
That we have built. Modern pipework
Like the Westbourne over Sloane Square
Canals that sluice, spaghetti mesh
Fairground wheels and yes
It trickles down.

Trickles in increasingly fickle
And unsettled rivulets through deserts
Carcasses, the bones of asses in the dirt
Reapers sickles over wishes, this dearth
Of liquid.
Hackney Brook, hundred foot wide at the Lea
The Tyburn, that Windsor's throne stole as rest
The Fleet with quays, carved Farringdon valley
Are cased in concrete tunnels under us
Like spent mine shafts, the hewn veins once precious.

Hidden in the Byzantine marble jungle
The York stone Baobabs with termite blocks
With ants, the concrete mangroves
Where the call of soot stained statues and tin rats
Echo
The penguins and the parrot carouses
Hidden here amid ceremony and veneration.
Are the great pump houses.

Gargantuan pipes, the old hide replaced
By copper, by stainless, in a forest
Concrete towers like a tall coal furnace
The spinning whirlpool
The suction mouths of graft, quotas, licence
Empty all liquid from vast depressions
The great motors turning, bound in velum
Bolted tight with torts. Gearing and levers
Whirring din of paper bladed turbines
With the power of language and routine
The monumental PSI
To force this liquid
To vast oceans in the sky.

The velum casks that bind the pumps are rotting
If they were to rupture, burst
And all this liquidity flood upon the common
A thousand flowers. The Flamingoes would return
Elephant and Ibis. The Whales in the sky
Sharks, yachts would beach upon glass bottoms
And watch the earth's innumerable flowers
There are oceans in the sky
That take PSI and power.

Monday, November 13, 2017

Blueprint - Oceans III

Hidden in Byzatine marble jungle
The York stone Baobabs with termite blocks
With ants, the concrete mangroves
                                                     where the call
Of soot stained statues and tin rats
                                                     echo,
The penguins and the parrot carouses
Hidden here amid ceremony and veneration.
Are the great pump houses.

Gargantuan pipes, the old hide replaced
By copper, by stainless, in a forest
Concrete towers like a tall coal furnace
The spinning whirlpool
The suction mouths of graft, quotas, licence
Hoover all liquid from vast depressions
The great motors turning, bound in velum
Bolted tight with torts. Gearing and levers
The whirring din of paper bladed turbines
With the power of language and routine
The monumental PSI
To force this liquid
To vast oceans in the sky.

Sunday, November 12, 2017

Blueprint - Oceans II

Trickles in increasingly fickle
And unsettled rivulets through deserts
Caracasses, the bones of asses in the dirt
Reapers sickles over wishes, this dearth
Of liquid.
Hackney Brook, hundred foot wide at the Lea
The Tyburn, Windsor's throne stole as rest
The Fleet with quays, carved Farringdon valley
All cased in concrete tunnels under us
Like spent mine shafts, the hewn veins once precious.

Saturday, November 11, 2017

Blueprint - Oceans I

We have built oceans in the sky
Glass bottomed that gleam in the sun
They are clouded, the keels of yachts
The slow whales, swift sharks visible
When the clouds part.

The great imperial locks and seals
The black bitumen seams that sweat
High vaulted walls, their narrow shore
The face of safe doors that perspire
Condensation on the steel skin
Creaking gaskets of old money
Dripping. Where the great pipes empty
In a Niagra, spray rises
High into the air and some winds
Set the waves to lap in thin cascades.
There are waterways in the sky
That we have built. Modern pipework
Like the Westbourne over Sloane Square
Canals that sluice, spaghetti mesh
Fairground wheels and yes
It trickles down.

II.


Trickles in increasingly fickle
And unsettled rivulets through deserts
Caracasses, the bones of asses in the dirt
Reapers sickles over wishes, this dearth
Of liquid.
Hackney Brook, hundred foot wide at the Lea
The Tyburn, that the throne stole as rest
The Fleet with quays, carved Farringdon valley
All cased in concrete tunnels under us
Like spent mine shafts, the hewn veins once precious.

III.

Hidden in Byzatine marble jungle
The York stone Baobabs with termite blocks
With ants, the concrete mangroves
                                                     where the call
Of soot stained statues and tin rats
                                                     echo,
The penguins and the parrot carouses
Hidden here amid ceremony and veneration.
Are the great pump houses.

Gargantuan pipes, the old hide replaced
By copper, by stainless, in a forest
Concrete towers like a tall coal furnace
The spinning whirlpool
The suction mouths of graft, quotas, licence
Hoover all liquid from vast depressions
The great motors turning, bound in velum
Bolted tight with torts. Gearing and levers
The whirring din of paper bladed turbines
With the power of language and routine
The monumental PSI
To force this liquid
To vast oceans in the sky.

He read the Mail

He entered like he was expected
The face of a Cypriot Greek
Greying, chiseled to English sag
And bulldog cheeks.
He read the Mail.

He didn't want the cabbage
And mocked in voice
"So poor all I can afford is
Cabbage."
He read the Mail.

"And carrots and peas
And tea and gravy
The gravy not in the tea"
Like the waitress would think
That was funny
Like his wife thought
That was funny.
His wife wasn't there
He sat hunched in a chair
And read the Mail

Wednesday, November 08, 2017

Friday, November 03, 2017

Blueprint - Germs

Let's talk about how the germs get in
The parasites and virus
On the matchstick frail and weakened limbs.
Leeches latch on among us
Who wade the muddy current waist deep
Up to our neck, the choicest.
Bully the hungry and short on sleep
On those who work the hardest
Carry most
That's where parasites will find a host.

When broken in, to broken body
Then they multiply again
Begin, select vectors to infect
The whole flock till every sheep
Is sick with ticks. “We gave you freedom”
All the grass you could ever need
Emaciated. So many mouths
To feed.
That's how germs get in and louse.

Influenzas, to name some
Kill the old and kill the young
Knock off all the bottom rungs
Then see how long they have to run.

T-Cells only recognise
After the infections come
The broken fragments of a virus
Make an innoculation.

Germs will still get in unless
We can recognise the parasite
And every body old and young
Has the strength to fight.

Friday, October 27, 2017

It's a conspiracy

If you landed in this hall
This land where language
Seems a family affair
And the tiles reflect pictures of
Different countries like a map
You could become confused
And all at sea perhaps
Bemused at the profusion
Of alloys from the pot.

If you took just the best, trump card
The richest, deepest from each
Muditha, natsukashii, saudade
Practice and adaptations from each niche
If you watched and copied
Edited and embroidered
A collage of all
The distilled wisdom in this hall
Would you be a street ahead?
A road in Jammu, Bosaso or Siirt
If you linked each end to end like Dido
What empire would you start?
.
But for those whose mind balks the hurdle
Of the changing colours of the paegant.
Whose blood curdles
At different language and pigment
Whose roots
Reach so far back in one spot
That they forgot animals move
And vegetables stay put
Immigration is a conspiracy,
Against the ignorant.

Its a conspiracy
Like wires against pigeons
And bronze against tin.
Like peer review on revelation
It's a slow yarn to spin.

Thursday, October 26, 2017

Things not to say on tinder IV

Tempt me into sin
My mother is a feminist
I was just flicking past
On every face that came.

Tempt me into sin
For I'm innocent
And principled and so
Unschooled therein.

Tempt me into sin
I am just another one them
Lonely older men
That woke and found
That youth had passed
And all the inns were barren.

Things not to say on Tinder III

Oh Nicky, oh Nicky
To say this' so tricky
But I must get you
Wet and sticky.
Oh but know
That I'm so picky
And seldom one
To have a quicky
But like spice
The thought tender lingers
Of kneading you
Beneath reading fingers.

Monday, October 23, 2017

Things not to say on Tinder II

You were bad, but I'm flattered
I might be sad if it mattered
But I'm mad as hatter
And the pad is in tatters.

I might be sad if it mattered
You were bad, but I'm flattered.

Blame the moon

Blame the moon
Become mine, tonight
It is not too soon
This season, after midnight
As you imply
By morning light be mine.

When we are not ours
Blame the moon
When it is waxen full
Clotted like a bucket of milk
Bowl round
And you will find my all.

Blame the moon
Hear its beams make
These puppet silhouettes
Ball dance maquis of brick
Make these shadows of my lips.

Brewing clouds are not the storm
In all its booming might
Blame the moon
For tides and storms
Become mine tonight.

Sunday, October 22, 2017

Glitter

My mind is all a glitter
My head all flocked in wool
Reflecting as I sit here
Wish I was better on the pull.

For she was rich as fire pits
And she all soft like down
And she was such a magic witch
And I simple clown.

And she was from the silver screen
A fountain sweet of spells
A groundhog day of might have beens
No story there to tell.

And she was joy like spinning tops
A diamond in the light
And all my head in fleece is flocked
Ensconced in bottled night.

My mind is all a glitter
My head all flocked with wool
They say it is a wise man's art
Naturally,  a fool.



Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Blueprint - Addicts

Them, with demon will to power, evil
Spirit of sheetless mattress, blood stained walls
Narrow, grime ragged, gap tooth, grey valleyed skin
Spirit of brown bags and reused needles
Know there is but one single rule to them.
Glass windows broken, locks crowbarred wrecked
Tall fences and high walls are no object.
To those, the desperate and demon driven
They take like they've right
Sell cheap to escape
To their heavenly and happy haven.

Them, demon willed
The mendacity of alcoholism
The puffed bravado and cruel thuggery
Of balance blind drunks, still bottle draining
The arrogance of cocaine, closed vision
The violence, loudest of all voices
With the busy unquenched lust to return
Quest back, to festering crack house. The den
Scoured of every object but vice
Detritus, cans, smashed glass and ash
All the rest sold off.
And quest back

Addicts
The same dopamine pathway
Pleasure kick
Personhood long lost in lust for a fix
The spirit of reused needles, criminal
Minded, possessed, demon tools
In addict ridden halls of power
In the Pyramids and Ivory Towers.

The same pathway
Each dose deadening receptors
The next fix must be bigger, and bigger
Till drunk on power, crazed, addicted
Till veins scream for needles, hands shake
For drink. There is no rule they will not break
Addicts

They must be institutionalised, like the Priory
In high security, watched round the clock
Till cured, and we can be sure
They are safe
To return to the society.

Thursday, October 12, 2017

Blueprint - Butterflies

You are a butterfly, carbon fibre
Butterfly
You, yes you. No lie
To say your wingbeat
May cause hurricanes
In the course of flight
Resonate and amplify
Sweep flat all built overnight.
Butterflies.

You are a rock in the river
The current altered by your mass
We are all rocks in the river
Together shape its flow and course.

See this vast chamber
Roofed by satellites
Your cry will echo in this great hall
Of linked marionettes
That dance in chaos
Each leg pulling on another leg
Nodding and then wagging heads
The ripples in the current spread
The questioned begged
Who tugged the first, starting string?
Why some butterfly's, passing wing.

Know this truth
That rises from our enacted scripture
The god, Market, hears you when you pray
When you perform plastic rituals
It is moved.
The spiders high in the rafters of the web
They see you. Your every move
Moves them.

Tell them of the change you are
Tell them what your heart declaims
You, a carbon fibre butterfly
Your wingbeat causes hurricanes.

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

The sweeping dark

This sweeping dark, these dusks
I ask you questions
But you are earless
Without heart. And no reflection
In this mirror, this sweeping dark
The coldest shiver. Look down
All the appartitions quiver
A pall of tales, the sweeping dark
The dusk, the empty park
And jumpers. No reflection
And all the silver, the hidden moon
The unbidden wings of gloom
Sit o'er the sky, this sweeping dark
These dusks, an empty heart
When all the sails fall becalmed
When all the views in minds high film
Have so few and seem so ill
The sweeping dark comes o'er the scene
And all to come, and all that's been
And yet in all, as sure as must
Some dawn will always follow dusk.

Monday, October 02, 2017

Normal is what you are if you can't be anything better

From the time that I dressed
In my sister's corduroy dungarees
Many have said that I'm mad as a hatter
And I thank them, for their kind flattery
Believing in fact, that the fact of the matter
Is that normal is what you are
If you can't be anything better.

My mum once said play the game,
Just try and fit in
That particular game,
I'm unlikely to win.
But originality, is not the original sin
So I'll say this to the classes that chatter
Normal's what you are
If you can't be anything better.

I heard men should wear uniform, go march in time
Get popular products, from production lines
Wear a suit, with a regular tie
And settle down to a safe nine to five
Anxiously conform to conventional fetters
Secure in the moores living law to the letter
I've seen folk strive to be normal
And end up quite bitter
Because normal's what you are
If you can't be anything better.

Disparagingly average, damned by faint praise
The normal is never the finest of days
Regular never the very best way
Normal rarely really what pays
Would you rather follow fashion
Or be a trend setter?
Normal's what you are
If you can't be anything better.

I've always worn purple
And walked with bare feet
And always found people
Who disapprove vehemently
And I'll tell you this, all types of go-getters
Know normal's what you are
If you can't be anything better.