Wednesday, June 06, 2018

Fish and refugees. III


The driver made the ride scream all the way
Down the road from Bangkok, professional
Past low foundries, platoons of effigies
Blurring like change, green and sweat, square shacks
Body shops each block like the vehicles here
Are broken.

The green Island rises above grey sea
Like a well sung myth. Roof gone high and wide
Above the shrubs, pale sand, dark palm fronds splay
Like torn Venetian blinds against the sky
Pennants of a paradisal army
And some, beetle eaten their headdress slipped
Make littoral a harbour of stalled ships
The tropic thick air presses like a dilute sea
Seasoned by butterflies, blooms, these foreign
To my eye the lizards, bugs, the plants here
Flower until they die.

From the shore at night you'd be forgiven
For thinking the fishing boats far cities
Lost Atlantis and its suburbs risen
From the sea. What chance do squid have, what pity
Soft flourescence the most delightful spell
Of all sweet dances in staged Darwin's hall
What chance do they stand against the blazing lure
The Venusian halogens
To see such beauty so immense and pure
That we could not know, but to call it awe
So they rush to the net, the plate, their end.

There are young teak stands, seas of cane acreage
And the jungle brush fires reak like temples.
Throughout the year, when the cane stands tall
After sundown men go from the village
Set flaming torches to ripe sugar
And it lights the countryside like pillage.

The saddest part is to see elephants
Balding pink patches, hunched, dropped ears, limp trunks
Chained waiting for riders they cannot want
Far from home jungles and most often drunk.

A couple, young and bronzed track the water
Footprints snakewise though the sand and flotsam
Their hands are not together, heads are down
This dream they both dreamt in another town
Seems dreamt now in separate minds today
Like they woke in a brochure and full of reproach
The saltwater washes their tracks away.

Saturday, May 19, 2018

Fish and refugees, postscript


Because the commonwealth will come and help us
Because we were raised on these myths
That Johnny Foreigner loved the way we give it to em
Because coal black, white tooth sambo
Will offer up his bowl
In exchange for a touch of British class.
Because they were lucky to have us
We were raised on these myths.

What have they done to Greece?
To Sumeria?
Ruins now and aped in architecture
The house that power built and myths
Stripped and shipped and worn
Like ermines of our time.

Do they build like Christchurch in Korea?
Will we who first burnt coal be remembered in our forms
Will they read Shakespeare and Newton any more
Like Pythagoras and Homer
Will these stories fur our descendants shoulders
Even as their great arc breaks on this new era's shore?

The myths don't tell you
That we dismantled the cotton industry of India
For the mills of Manchester
Dismembered the Ottoman Umma when oil was new and cool.
Fought the Chinese for right to sell them smack
Fought them again to sell them more.
Murdered the Irish for nine hundred years,
James, Henry, Cromwell, the blight,
Filler on the Western Front.
Armed Benin to enslave the Gold Coast, Guinea
Then broke them in debt
Our myths don't record this
But the Irish, Chinese, Ghanaians, the Indians
They all have their own myths.

Our myths speak of a heroic past
When pith helmets paved the way for God
And God spoke in English
When we bought trade to backwaters
And illiterates ululated, encircled, enthralled
Crowned us with garlands and feathers
Showed us gleaming treasures which we took.
Our myths never say that maybe they
Expected garlands back.

And so we go
Cap proudly on our head
And offer up these myths to the French
Who we fought for five hundred years
And sneered at.
And Germans, who we fought and humiliated
The Italians who we fought, the Austrians and Hungarians
Who we defeated. The Dutch for whom we invented
Concentration camps.
And the Spanish where we've got a rock
Stuck like a pile in their butt
And say give us this, for these myths
But they have their own.

Friday, May 18, 2018

Fish and refugees


The bald heads bobbed above the standard seats
Like toffee apples in a bowl on Halloween
“I'm shipping the chest freezer all the way over”
“All the way over!”
“All the way over. Shipping's cheap.”

“I was a child in the Isle of Mann
It's their fault for having open borders
All the way to over there.”
“I know about the EU” he said
“We have an agreement with the French”
37,000ft in the air.

“Do you know how many people died on Thailand's roads this month?”
He asked, almost accusatory.
“How old is yours?”
“36”
“You don't smoke”
“No”
“No”
“Not anymore”
“And how old are you now?”

“We can have the fish”
“You can't just fish more fish there are scientists”
“Scientists give our fish to the Spanish.”

Fish is 0.5% of GDP
97% of migrants are not refugees
This I didn't share, lean in, intervene
From my chair, given that obviously,
Small changes can cause chaos
In a complex system
And at the time we were all 37,000ft in the air.

“I haven't done as well as some of my friends
From the Grammar. Secondary Modern?”
The other nods
And I don't blame my father” to strangers
37,000ft in the air
With no mention of the City, or pensions, tax
Empire, sunset havens, their asylum.
“but you want to know what went wrong of course”
The man from the Isle of Mann agreed.
And they talked fish and refugees.

Sunday, April 08, 2018

Note

In lieu of a hotel
I spent the night in Pattaya
In various bars
Decorated with whores
But you had exhausted me
Of all, none seemed worthy.

Saturday, April 07, 2018

Emotional Intelligence


I had looked in through a lense
Bent light magnifying the focal point
Making elephants from sea horses
Like a ship's captain or spy.
Espionage on my psyche.
Infiltrating which why.
Straightening my spine
In mantras, calming horses in the garden
Until once I just heard waves
Like radio from inner tides
Like surf wash, too wide for the eye
Meaningless through a lense.
The voice the forest makes
From all its combined parts
Asidophilous, the gut, the heart
The eukaryotic colony, full symphony
Messages formed before the ear
Before words reach
Wi-fi in the mitochondria
Answers like a village greeting
Within the citadel's defence
In waves received emotional intelligence.


Thursday, April 05, 2018

List

Phone battery and lense
Tracksuit bottoms.
This is an incomplete list.
Add wanderlust for spice
A thimble of zest
Add white to blue mornings
And watch the sky lift
Add enthusiasm and stir
Thrice widdishins
And check the clocks
Add why to nots.
It will never add up
If you look for the answer to be four
It's not arithmetic, this course.
This an incomplete list.

Saturday, March 31, 2018

Acts of faith


The roads are an act of faith
The old world left
Where time was taken to cut corn
Cement empire, mitre ashlar boulevards
For this florescence of concrete rectangles, coated beige
Like religion has faded from yellowed walls
Low houses lost, the undergrowth
Like stenciled adverts peel, eaten by the sweat of air.
A verdant florescence of failed Tetris
Crystalising out of poverty like an invasion
Necessity's efficiency, three to a scooter
While the bloated SUV sits marooned 
In traffic, in rivers of screaming steel
Pheromone lines of industry swarming
A cacophony of honks and horns storm junctions
Like piston driven Wilderbeast across the Mara, Mbalageti.

Over such self-organised acts of faith
New Collossi tower, children of Luxor
Stronger, better fed, clad in dark glass, bones of steel
Saturated in benzene smog like an afterbirth of wealth
The Napoleonic dream lucid in this half light
Tarmaced ballistics, the gyre on thin wheels
Young trees, scaffolded in the flood, a sticking plaster
For this incensed place, that boils.
The roads are an act of faith.

Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Valentine for L

Moon over water
In love I went diving in
Trying to find you.

Valentine for an errant muse

It's a scar upon my mind that kiss
Etched my nerves like lithograph
Parting peck branded my cheek
Now this sense unbidden comes
The skin blushes
And the bone
A tactile hallucination
The sweetest gift I've known.

Valentine for uplink

Am I allowed to miss you
All this while elapsed
And you moved through
Jail birds and murderers
And I through houses
I was rich then
Favours in my pocket like bank notes
And all so valuable
Most, Most
Favours are not printed from a plate
Each art work unique
Your imprint so soft and brief
And I ended so off and chief
Am I allowed to miss you?
It wasn't ever
That I thought your soul not art
The work that you have wrought
So beautiful, a perfect crystal
Of balanced love, warm joy
And tact
Am I allowed a fond look back?
I will miss you
When I'm a faded memory
And you grey haired and courtly
When the towers are being torn down again
When the seas come, and each season
Is a blessing.
I'll miss you
And know love better in the missing.

Valentine for A

Sproutlings, my fountain, zest
I sketched a thought upon a napkin
To hand onto a passing Toucan
Some token of my affection
I'll act as if you never got.

Some time back I lit a fire in this spot
Not that block that blazes up the way
Down the charred path ashen grey
I wonder how that caught.

There was a sapling on this street
I've searched for day and night
Perhaps if I climb this tall tree
I'll get a clearer sight.

Feather bale, the sun was better with you
Finding myself in the long grass
Corridors booby trapped with anticipation
Your voice like a trapeze harness. Pinstripe suit
The sun was better with you.

Valentine for S


When you put your ear to a shell
You can hear the sea
Only its not the sea, but air
Reverberating between your ear
And the empty space of the shell.
But I'll still reach the pink conch
Off the shelf and listen.
It was only when we stopped
That I saw everyone watching
When we danced in the restaurant
A few days to go.
Woolly hat, green sarong, the pattern
On the cafe window on Mare Street
It's odd what you retain.
Air reverberating against the shell.
I gave no thought to memory then
Tea tree oil and lavender
Turn tumblers, and I hear the sea
Only it's not the sea, but time
Reverberating between heart and memory.


Tuesday, February 06, 2018

Thing

Call these piled clouds, tall toppling bubbles
So they sit gathered upon my shoulders
Like plastered cherubs with bugles and flute
Blue note sets Weeble free tarantella
I shall wash in this thick winter frost, hot
Till hail spills warm from my brow Baptismal.
Desire born for this season, Christened
In cursive fonts like Ariadne's thread
Lay traced in rotting archaeology
Its direction reckoned in forensics.


Sunday, January 28, 2018

Blueprint - Cake

Offering dish. Trans-Jordan 2nd millenium BC

Silk bussel, silvered mirror and wig
She thought leavened eggs
Sugar, risen golden baked,was cake
A hall of silver mirrors and lace.

With a common touch,
Grease fingered and muddied
They called pie
Higher, with deeper slices
Stories tall sliver of filling
Steaming via the podium
From some nation's womb
And it's news.
Pie is how we organise sunshine.

Calm at the eye of the storm, cake
A gyre spread across continents
Wrath or bounty in a wing's breath
Bodies of men and women, steel hoppers
The wheels of lorries, docking ships
Hands in chain across dimensions
Plane brake smoke on bitumen
Cake is not the the thing in the tin
Cake is how we organise sunshine.

Certain as it rises
Balance a pyramid on pin
Set head after tail, after head
After wing, after leaf, after blade,
After photon..
Alfafa, Cock's foot and Timothy
Concentrate blue grass to cream
Organise worms to custard
Box sunshine in steel and ship it
From under the watchful eye of Christ
To glass mountains
Soya beans marching like Napoleon
Rivers be dammed, greenhouses
Built on sand. Blood on the walls
Blood in the drains, for Pie.
This is how we organise sunshine.

Therapy Notes II

In calling after echoes of you
I found hard walls
Tunnels reverberating
In hurled questions
Heard the old curse repeat
And repeat and repeat
Until it settles.

In calling after echoes
Calling out to walls and tunnels
I heard a wailing child I could not find
Beaten by bounced brick bats
Indicted by blame
Found that comfort missed
From the call of anguish
That repeats and repeats and repeats
Until it settles.

In calling after echoes of you
I began to find missing screws
Piston bolts, the grit, lost teeth
In lightless vaults retrained sight
Retrained my ear, like bats to
Echoes
That repeat and settle.

Saturday, January 27, 2018

They make the air a vice

They make the air a vice
And the pension crisis
Solved by wolves
Assyrian ceramic perfume bottle.

Fear in the hollow eyes
The houses, mouths open wide
Respectably shocked
And silent.

They make the air a vice
Pressing like a coming fire
Walking with hands ready
Clenched, missing a rosary
Worry lines like tectonics in streets
And an ad break.

What's the benefit of all this
Orwellian project handed in late
The trail of a small jet
All the clothes a little older
Decorated.
Chop and change like shops
The air is a vice
Invisible wolves in the clouds
There will be looting.

Like Nandrolone

I'll see you soon
Means the same as I'll phone
She loved me
Like an iguana in fish tank
I loved her like Nandrolone.

Friday, January 26, 2018

Going to sleep on the job

Here's a thing
And you may think it's odd
Top pros
Fall asleep on the job.

It can be a hard day's work
Full of stress and strain
But when the jobs on
It's not time to complain.

When it's all up in the air
And there's lights flashing up
And all about
Have just run amok.

Here's a tip from the top
And you may think it odd
Top pros
Go to sleep on the job.

When they're all out there
Looking on you
When there's no way out
And more chores to do

The solution, is not what you think
Find a spot right by the fuss
And take forty winks.
When is comes parniing down
And they call off the dogs
That's when top pros
Go to sleep on the job.

Thursday, January 25, 2018

Salt and ashes

Cast this cargo seaward
Salt and ashes, what it fertilises
I will neither know nor tend
Only seeds upon the wind
I will not pass by here again.
The watermark is low
Cast this cargo
And should some find value
Fish, urchins, crab
Let us celebrate next habour
With logs, flagons and song
They will not mark this spot for long
Not with an X.
But let us celebrate
Sacrifice to fish
It was but stowed weight these gifts
This fresh wind so swift
She skips across the crests
And runs the storms like Terns
Tell me are there ports to West
Or South of here
I have a hold so capacitous
Maybe in Dalmatia
I'll find pepper I can trade for wine
This cargo is but salt and ashes
The wind is good, the weather fine.

Patterns

If as from my life seems clear
I fall in love every seven years
Then by the time I love again
I'll be 49 and to what end?
To just repeat this pattern.

It's a thought and part a fear
A cause to check the course and steer
By the time I love again
I'll be 49 and to what end?
To just repeat this pattern.