Excerpt from batshit

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So I went to the shed
And in some cluttered corner
Under things I was saving
To do something with someday
I found, mangy and resentful
My career, emaciated.
It upset my friend the most.
I used to bring it to the office
When we worked together
Bright eyed, it would
Entertain him, fetch things
And do tricks
He had been away
And hurt to see it sick.
He had some scraps
The usual fluorescent lit terminal
Window on a light well
In some piece of listed dilapidation
Listing and sorry like an old ho
Seeking solace in a bottle
I feed it keystrokes and it might
Live through summer.
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I used to love dawn
From any angle
The delinquent birds
Are my friends
Singing to street lights

I still love dawn
But seldom when too long up alone
The garden looks so fine
I have made a home
And grow rocket from the walls
And yet this home will fall.

I have become choosy
About my dawns
High summer Tai Chi
On still days only
When I am well rested.

The intoxicated dawns
Of ecstasy, when all
Night has been generous and warm
And these dawns
The drunks whisper so soft in the street
I hear my pen scratch.

I have so many
They can't be listed here
All dawns to choose from.

I must be muddled

I unchartered Chartist
In uncharted power struggle
I must be muddled
Sitting and thinking
And sitting and thinking
Sitting
A new beginning in Dao
I-universe, beyond ego
A new big innings
They'll laugh at you
I must be muddled
I should go down to the water
The sick and slow canal
To separate some of the muddle
The things that are there
And here
I must go down to the muddle
A sick and slow caned fool
To play my part in the struggle
Like I learnt at school.

Rain

Am I to blame
If I make myself the target
When Eros' arrows rain
Martyred like the a varaed bull
In the last lists of pain
As painted on my face
By Eros arrow's rain.

Some hope

Would you be my lover.
Forever.
So that they name stars after us
And wedding cars carry our figurine.
Is this an innocent or idle dream?

The beach

Last night tar skies were harbinger
Wind awash with ides
Galloped the stretched beach
Grain routed over grain
Fled the tide in vain.

Like Hannibal from West
Rolled billious stratus
Bloated with scorn
A pall, moonless and deaf
Told of pain by morn.

Sail open below the awful ranks
With little room leeward she ran
And was broken
Vessel threshed 'gainst cliffs
Wood rent and canvas tore
As land and air and water
Vied in blackness, each unsure.

Unblessed her crew were lost
Their cries like candles in a furnace tossed
Dashed and drawn down restless deeps
For Davey Jones their souls to keep.

Now sun is splayed like deck planks
Upon the beach
Sick mast rifted through deck
Decorates the break.
Figurehead cast upon a crest
Lies a lonely mourner on the wreck.
The rest has become flotsam
On the path in this morning fresh
And some young wife
Dons spinster's dress
Such crushing loss,
In passing interest.

A note of clarification

My love is not the first blush of summer wine

I thought it was a well known fact.
Beside Richmond's wide narrative
Tide tickling shoes and tyres
Doe fretted from barb to captor
And back
From what I thought
A well known fact.

I didn't note the polysemics
The grand Victoriana
Colonnaded against context
Grass bank and straw boaters
Placed me in another time
I thought you knew
It wasn't wrote between the lines.

I should've known
Should've had more sympathy
For your semantics, so unladdered
I said it
Just in observation
Meant it
Not as declaration
Thought it
No great revelation
But echoes of other utterances
Spluttered and frustrated
The dreams they trick Carp with
Must have caught your word
And made it grow
As misused beauty does
So unlike you
Misunderstanding
Its just
I meant it different.

You of all should know
Should not be suprised
It's not like I never told
Or gave it much disguise.

But I should probably know
You must have heard some lies
And looked upon a wintered rose
That promised much but died.

But since misunderstanding
Has budded, lest it flare
Let me hasten to the clifftops
And with pride to all declare

My love is not the first blush
Of summer wine
But like Brandy, the reserve
Rested, more refined

No quick crush
Of some rushed harvest
That bubbles heady light
A stronger liquor
The vapors lost
In alchemy of decade nights

No spritzer, diluted
Or coloured with Gin
Downed with a song
When the evening begins

A burnt love
Distilled drip by drip
From the alembic
To be sipped

Not the driving ocean wave
That claws the sand
Or raves at cliffs demanding
Or mirror vain and valueless
Till beauty gives its gaze

A love lain cellared
Vanillaed in oak
As seasons have ripened
And frozen
And blown to colour again
And children grown from swadling
To broad and sturdy men.

Beyond the flame of wax and wick
That startles timid at each breathe
A beacon blaze in optics set
To rest, in storms, the mind of ships
And proclaim above the cliffs
Occasionally
You are ever part of happy
And out to sea
At least for me
You know
I guess I always felt
You would save me from myself
I trust your judgement still
You always held my heart so well
Even at a distance.

Valentine for S

Love,
Where do you travel?
It seems you have settled
For years, at least
Physically, where do you travel
Now. My heart has moved
Many millions of miles
Around the mass of a word
A singular definition of a word
Amongst the trillions
Across the darkened sky.

Some have tried
To change my compass
Show me maps
Thrust ill formed modern usage
Crass into my lap
A luckless crop
I till
Still like a rock
In a vacuum without manumission
I travel the orbit of one definition.

Raindrops

Raindrops in spring
Still smell the same
Although among the scents of things
I have come to know some names
Of flowers and soils.
The emergence,
Curious in youth
Of Crocus, Hyacinth, and Sarcococa
Unknown comforts
Of Spring's breath
Is now a known wonder
In winter quite forgot
Liberated by raindrops
Telling my nose
That I must tend the roses.

She was classical

She was classical
The type to travel
To palaces in Crete
And finding string
Would ravel up the far end
Winding further in
Willingly where others dread
Lifeline spooled upon a bobbin
In a maze that monsters tread.
She would make a fate to speak of
With Theseus, the Bull
Or both
Live at least one more moment to the full
A flower in her youth.

Egg

Perfectly inert, outwardly
Hard I am
For how thin this armour is.
Eggshell vulnerable
One day myself
Will peck through.

Love is a long word

Call me to the campfire
When all sleep
And the great log in embers
Is a mirror of our love.
Know, as Buddhists do
Each flame
Never born nor dies the same
In dawn
We shall gather fuel.

Lion I would go with you
As we have through so many doorways
So many stairways and clouds
Tented heart a circus hidden
Just for us amid the crowds.

Those grounds we played
And shaped our thoughts
Those hallowed eaves
Where hopes were wrought
With talk uncorked
By hop and grape
Have been erased
Signs sallowed
And been replaced
All covered by the pace of change
But nothing is completely strange
When seen beside your eyes again.
Though the City's race makes brick but chalk
We share an archaeology
In the places and the streets we walk.

Walk with me
Unto the sea
Stand with me on sand once more
And let the waves lap at our toes
Then in a vessel let us go
Out beyond these balmy shores
Row together past the bay
To explore endless today.

So give us today
Words laughed over
After we have authored shopping lists
And unenunciated epics
Tailored favours worn implicit
And abandoned asking why
Our separate souls grow to arches
That hold a church roof high.

Give us then this promise
Vows for mouths of innocents
So that we too might smile
At the constants
Cast starlight
Into ink dark future
Sow our own conspiracy in sonar
Echo-locate in laughter
Values
And the outlines of tomorrow's you.

The bed weighs balanced
My other wing
Self-fulfilling Oracle
I trust this love
Like hot taps and light switches
My normal miracle.

Old friend

I met a saxophonist
Teeth like the old brass
She once blew
Dull, battered, dirty and lost.
Bewildered in well made rags
At the bus station
She begged

With time to spare
To listen and talk of nowhere
And where the roads lead
To walk local streets
And remind her of the tomorrows
She still has.

However long December runs
Some August dawns are yet to come
Of tomorrows planned when we were young
There will be some,
The simple ones.

I met a saxophonist
I gave her what change I had
She bought me a coffee.

I only want you for one thing

And she said
"You only want me for one thing".
I, dumbfounded on one heel
Plans, images and ideals
Falling over each other like a panicked crowd
And then she turned on her heel
And left.
To keep it real
I said, yes
I ain't in it
For the way we move to music
That never made the charts
Or wining and dining
Or pretty galleries of art.
It ain't the quality time I'm interested in
It's what it leads to
I only want you for one thing.

I just want you to touch me
Where others don't
We don't have to be lovers
I want to fill blank spaces
Exploring all of your gifts
Lay down my passions
Press, express, lift
Press, express, lift.
I want feet to find me
And draw me in
The way it should be
I only want you for one thing.

I just want to use
You for the tight
Concentration of the muse
Find rhythms to ride
Make lines fuse and glide
And I want it
To come from deep inside
I want those sleepless nights
Bleary eyed
Stretching to access
Every nuance express
Turning it over and over and over
Until sheets are crumpled and cast aside
Till my pen dries
And skies lighten
I don't even have to like you
Don't be frightened
Just inspire a Haiku
One piece of writing
I be honest,
I ain't even thinking as far as a fling
It's these moments
I only want you for one thing.

Three Haikus

I

Wishful thinking this
Black brush connects with pale page
How meaning is made.

II

Crow on flower branch
Bent under black brooding weight
A cry, petals fly

III

Dim, cluttered gutter
Mirrors of vanity rise
High office caught sun

Two-state solution is an oxymoron

Oxymoron
“A figure of speech in which apparently contradictory terms appear in conjunction”
OED

If I have a cup of tea
And stir in two sugars
Such that the substances are blended
One suspended in the other,
That is a solution.

If I were to separate
The sugar from the tea
That is a precipitate
In terms of chemistry.

Do you get me.

So to make the dividing line
Between Israel and Palestine
A wall, solves nothing at all.

A wall entrenches the problem
Creates boundaries between peoples
A wall does not dissolve them.
Not a solution,
But a Two-State Precipitate
Based on one of Europe’s great
Intellectual mistakes.

Herder and Fichte
Have a lot to answer for.
The idea that
People of a common culture
And field of communication
Should form a single polity
A territory called Nation
Is calamitously mistaken
In one critical assumption,
That people don’t move.

They do
And they take their culture with them
And mix and change and rearrange
You might complain or try contain
Or blame it all on immigration
But there’s a basic problem with mobility
For the geography of ethnic nations.

So the Two-State Precipitate
Proposes to erect a boundary
Name some ways as alien
Who say they’ve been there
Since way back when,
The others say you have to go
You can’t win
And you know
That’s when the bloodshed begins.
It’s the same in the Balkans, India
Rwanda, Ireland, Sudan,
Them is alien and it’s not their land
It’s made complications
Since the idea began
Because morality and trust
Only extend to Us.

In the 17th century
Europe left a third of its people dead
In disagreements over whether Jesus
Was present in communion bread.
And learnt to our prosperity,
That theocracies
Tend to be belligerent
And victimise minorities,
Righteously.

So as more burned at the stake
It became widely known
That one should always keep separate
The Church and the Throne.

So what do we bequeath
To post-war refugees,
Fiefdom over monotheists
And a poisoning creed,
Theocratic Ethnic Nationalism.

It was only ever going to end up
A magnet for zealous lunatics
With an imperfect appreciation
Of scripture,
Intuitions like Fichte
Steeped in persecution myths
And an Old Testament notion of power,
The picture looks dour.

Because the moderates will stay
Wherever they have spread
But fanatics will flock the motherland
Justify attacks on other clans
As part of a greater plan
To cleanse their god-given land
And create
The Two-State Precipitate.

Theocratic Ethnic Nationalism is the solution
To long term peace in the Middle East
If
Long term peace in the Middle East
Is a problem
And you want to get a war on
Otherwise
“Two-state solution” is an oxymoron.

Written: 2011

The Fraoch

Irish Legends

This world so full of high beauty
And cruel misunderstanding
Tracing the root, under peat
Where origins are found
At the tip,
Eye powerless.

The Fraoch

How did the fraoch catch
Blaze in fire, me to blame
I sought to tend
To wilderness
When gusts whipped
Dark unknowns to flame.

Men have hunted on these moors
They must
For furs, not honest folk
Who take the lot
For other mouths beside the pot
But those with ferrets yoked, dogs
Who come for sport
And leave a dozen gutted pelts
Athwart a stick
Thence to market to turn a trick
The flames would birth for them.

I came with canvas,
Palette and brush
For sense of place
And in no rush
To paint and sit at dusk.

Was it the cackle
Of a tattered crow, that fell
Hard as flint and sparked the grass.
No.
Was it the stone I threw
Without care
To chase the sagging silhouette
To air.
No.
Was it some unknown arsonist
While I had left my seat
That struck a spiteful match
To the heather ‘broidered heath
No.

The sketch was misunderstood
As light faded
Condemned as modernist
A poor impressionist
With hands of wood.
It was never my intent
I meant to paint as Constable
But unappointed to such skill
I didn’t reach to what I could.

I didn’t believe
In one evening I  could
Capture with a brush 
All essence of the Aos Si
Magic of this land
Beneath the peat
Which grain by grain, in time
The sea shall understand.
It was beyond my hand.

Ah, but there’s the rub
I cannot lie
Of my enchantment
Our star, who rises at dawn
Above all men, warm beyond
The horizon, pillowed on waves
I thought myself so wise.

When I was young
I would have chased
Blue over scarlet
Back and forth across the canvas
Vain siege on enchanted air
The changing moor
Eluding my brush
Till all was muddied
And I was lost in darkness.
I thought myself so wise

To paint the gathering at the gate
Rolling country, the step
Where the bar spills
Intoxicated mouths gape
At our star sinking through Fand’s rest.

And yet fire fanned behind
I didn’t know the land, the season
When so dry, small frictions
Can turn to fuse a tuft
And cinders wick through root
Just a whisper, it must have took
The scent passed missed
The dark peat blistered
And Cailleachan came
I turned to face as ambushed
A fraoch of linging flame.

I stood for all I could
What can one man do
But pat, stamp feet
And tip a glass in hope
On furnaced heath
Admit defeat and flee.
I left my easel
Which had but a crude sketch
I never should’ve left.

I had been distracted
When the fraoch lit
Ran and hid amid high rocks
Sketch left as sacrificial fuel
The Aos Si know me as some
Blocked Hockney, Hackneyed fool
Who would sculpt a crude Picasso
Slash masterpieces and call it art
I know not
How many ways to cry.

I am not one to take the sword
And cross the ford to win a prize
Not mine
I kept my brushes for the moor
Not to capture fair Fionnabhair
On canvas, she had tired
Of all those fallen for her
I was told.

Had I painted as my intent
Undistracted, thought
In watercolour
On perspective, all attention spent
The depth of picture
Would have been clear
The fraoch within my care
As the flames rose
I didn’t do that, not then
Not there.

When I was young
I would have dreamed
Of running back to the fraoch
After the flames were done
To live upon the heath
Under the gaze of the sun
Notwithstanding disbelief
But now feet know concrete
And nothing will grow till spring.

If I had the caught the fire
Before it lit the Sidhe
Oh if, if, only if
I cannot lie
I had a hope
That gossip by the gate
And a kinder hand of fate
Would see me tend a fire
Some year upon the moor.
That and nothing more
Than to place a pot upon a hearth
Open to all but cold wind
And long odds of rest of last
And to call the heath our kitchen.
That wasn’t how it happened.

The Canvas

Behind closed windows
On a studio canvas
Lit by electric light
The tip to this root
Is not so elusive
But who really knows
In the long run.
The season, friction, a whisper
I sat, back
Facing the setting sun.

Value

If this pool were not so placid
That one glance revealed your grace
Would it's bowered fishing banks
Be more your kind of place.

Could you get your favourite rush
Where one swipe will fill your net
From waters teeming generous
Leaving idle hours yet.

Would you think better what you sought
If it never took the bait
Or loosened it, off the hook
Like the one that got away.

If your line was taut
Braced heels, knuckles white
You struggled with the reel
Uncertain of the fight

Would that one that you caught
Catch your eye perhaps
Amongst the flailing silver full
Pen of writhing sprats.

I doubt that.

You would, on your way
Come again, back to these glades
One day, to cast your hook
If there was one that got away
If there was one that got away
You would
I guess
Love me a little more
If I loved you a little less.

Carnival

Viscous
As the sweet cast off of slavery's crop
Streets bloom
To the tap of taught skins
Traditions
Of summer's end. The flotsam
Of irregular masses
Jam through bottlenecks
Stone and brick
Set by empire's architects
Sun high and rich in sweat.

Amidst a deluge, rivulets push
Hard as roots
The crush, flesh dripping
Reverberates, knots and dissipates
To star-shaped, can-handed
Dancers at the break
Of Portobello, where peppered
Fluorescent yellow jackets
Are placed in shade
By rackets
And fountains of feathers
Lazarus winged,
Every colour of rainbows
And all those dug from the earth.

The grand terrace's embrace
Sprouts bromeliads of bass, apes
“Where's Anna” swing
From every fissure
With flags beyond three colours
“Portugeas?” The breeze
Howls of happiness
“Every year I” wafts
Of sweet bud, flourishing melody
“Going next door” caramelised
Meat, percussion and spice
Scale whitewash
Darwinian.

From the passage between
The Groves
Teeming like Victoria
Grow great, twice transplanted boughs
Towering Teaks, Ziggurats and Baobabs
Old as Saxon, proud
Keystones of a lively sea, glittering
And painted. An Amazon

Then shadows wake on rooftops.
Beats have blended bars into hours
Sychronised strangers to friends
Pots bubble thick and
The prowling yellow coated pride
Amongst anonymous affection
Begins to stalk.
Keystones creak and stutter
Each stillness
Shows the undergrowth of voices
Naked. The skittish herd paws tarmac
From confusion
To purpose with each rebirth
Pitched. Horns ask questions
Rally whistles, the glowering cats
Pause, lick lips and slink 
As they summon to dare, pushing
The revelling West, the herd
And the rest into musical chairs.

Berimbao
Coagulates. Day blurs and lights
Make up the throng
Scraping steaming pots
Of song. Echoes in silhouette
Sway long after Elephants
Have drifted, one leg after the other,
The final leg back.
Jetsam of polystyrene, blue plastic
Spent rounds
Paper, fluorescent jackets rest in blind
Roads. Incandescents hum
Under canopies
Still standing. The shilling, curried secrets
Barrels cradled, somewhere
In the triangle, retread, hollowing
Till the last drop
Desert sand returns, faces from the night, arid stones. Shrinking
Springs succour Bedouin, long through blackness to daylight.

The streets will wake, forgetful and washed
Plus no one got killed in West London I hear
This year was a good year.

Looking back

Across the dale the woollen hills
Are ambered from the sinking sun
Sky, peach sweet and summer ripe
Pours a blush upon all that's done.

I trod this morn, the trail I watch
The spun hill soft with dusk
The loud cavalcade to supper settled
A life away from long day's rush.

The trail's trials, the slaver sun
The noisome cage of knotted oak
Are drenched and glassy distant now
All errors seem a joke.

The sweat stung scratch that branches cut
The scorched cast chest and threats of flies
Leave seasoned, loosened skin
Downy limbs and lidded sighs.

The boot that caught the twisted root
The kilns of fire beaten feet
Yawn lace agape in yard soaked gold
Like two hounds lying sound asleep.

Spent, the echo of curse and cry
Now lies in feathered forest
As sediment with songthrush calls
Below the breezy crest

For all the struggle along the track
The rasp as treads rake spitting dust,
The path dry, treacherous is in relief
An undulating bed of hush

A loosened thread, minor yarn
Sub-plot in a play of light
Shadow-steeping, the dyer's hand
Folds land slow till left to sight
Are keeping scenes mind kens worthy
In the shallows of the night.

What if they hadn't shot King?*

"In the end the struggle is not between people at all, but a tension between justice and injustice. Nonviolent resistance is aimed not against oppressors but against oppression"
Stride Toward Freedom. Dr. Martin Luther King

What if the dark depths of prejudice
Hadn't spat a bullet, bloodstained
The single garment of destiny.

What had Dr.King lived
Counselor to schizophrenic America
Great beacon light of hope
Through ominous clouds of inferiority
Through the deep fog of misunderstanding
Moving towards the goal of justice
with calm reasonableness and wise restraint.

What if King still led
Veterans of creative suffering
Still encouraged the disinherited children of God
to sit at lunch counters
Unafraid of the word "tension"
Make bridal suites of jail cells
And love the perpetrators of the unjust system
Deluging "I-it" relationships
In his mighty stream.

Would he succumb to the tranquilising drug of gradualism,
Acquiesce and thus become as evil as the oppressor
His legacy an endless reign of meaningless chaos
A desolate night of bitterness.

Would he be a victim of interposition and nullification
In the storms of persecution
And flames of withering injustice
Such that his cup of endurance could not overflow.

What would he dramatise that it can no longer be ignored
What just and unjust laws
How long the conscience of the oppressor sleep deprived
By the legitimate and unavoidable impatience
Of non-violent gadflies,
Roused with not threats, but facts of history,
This indescribably important destiny.

To what noble heights
Could he have risen, an American Solon
With the natural medicines of air and light
Moving men from mental ruts
Unshackling brothers smothering in the airtight cage of poverty
Opening funtown to coloured children
This extremist 
Working as if it were a possibility next morning
To lift the inescapable network of mutuality
To the majestic heights of understanding and brotherhood

And in winning freedom
so appeal to your heart and conscience
that he won you in the process.

"Possibly the South, the nation and the world are in dire need of creative extremeists"Letter from Birmingham City Jail, Dr. Martin Luther King

*The words in italics are those of Dr. Martin Luther King